Life Detox Philippines

First Ayahuasca CeremonyImmediately after drinking the tea, I felt heat shooting up the back of my head. It was like the sudden burst of acidity from drinking a very strong tequila or vodka. After a few minutes, flashes of images appeared even when my eyes were open. The first was a golden griffin then a huge greenish fish with legs. “Are this how my guides looked like?” I asked myself. They seemed to be there in front of me but I also knew that they were not there. I was still aware of the surroundings, the music, and the people on the side. My senses opened and I could hear the humdrum of a water tank motor far away. I laid down, still with eyes open, and saw Jeff, my husband who recently passed away. He was on the banister of the attic looking down on me. It gave me a sense of comfort to see that he was watching over me. It made me feel safe. I saw electric currents moving around me. It was constantly zooming towards, and at the same time, away from me. Then one big eye the size of a 31-inch TV screen appeared blinking at me. I suddenly realized that eyes were all around me...alive and blinking. Fearful, I closed my eyes.In my mind, a tree appeared then a forest, then insects. The insects were very strange-looking. It did not seem to belong to the world I knew of. I studied Biology, Comparative Anatomy and Parasitology in college, but I never have encountered insects with such features. The colors were vibrant but I had an impression that these insects were poisonous and nasty. I suddenly had the urge to vomit. I sat up to grab the bucket beside me and started puking. Everytime I closed my eyes, I could see these nasty creepy crawlers in my mind. Everytime I see them, I would have the urge to vomit. Each time I vomited, the images of these insects would disappear but as soon as I closed my eyes again, a new set of set of insects would reappear, then, I would vomit again... and again... and again. This cycle continued until none of these creatures reappeared in my mind’s sight anymore. I did not vomit any solids. There is nothing to vomit since I haven’t eaten for day and followed the Detox protocol religiously. Sometimes, saliva would come out, but oftentimes, just air. It seemed, though, that something large was coming out of my mouth. Eric, the Neoshaman facilitator, said that I was spewing out something energetic.I started to cry. I remembered the pain of losing my husband. While crying, I was questioning anyone out there in the cosmos why my husband has to die. I was in so much pain.When all the hurt was cried out, I laid down sobbing but relieved. I passed out with those feelings in me. Moments after, I woke up inside a coffin. I could see the earth above me. I was dead. My body was dead but I could feel the worms wriggling inside my skin and the insects nibbling on my insides. Surprisingly, I was not afraid. I said to myself, ”So this is how it is to be dead! Cool!” A sudden realization washed over me. I then asked myself, “If I am dead, why am I still able to think and talk to myself? Why am I still able to feel everything as well?” Then I realized that this was the true meaning of the concept that “I am not my body”. I was pure consciousness.I went to sleep and I couldn't remember any visions. It was total darkness. I woke up in the middle of the binaural music playing in the background except I noticed that the music was permeating inside my head. It was around me and inside me. It was both frightening as well as comforting. The sound was very familiar as if I have heard of this before when I was in outer space. (I never really had a physical experience in outer space but at that time I thought I had) I suddenly heard voices. The voices were also inside my head. The voices were like an echo that came near and reverberating from afar.“You cannot have a full Ayahuasca experience because there is an implant in your head” The rightmost part of my head near the base of my skull suddenly was vibrating and aching. The pain shooted up to the whole right part of my head down to the right shoulder blade traversing to the lining beside my rightmost portion of the entire spine. I was tracing the pain with my fingers desperately putting pressure on each part to relieve it. I was in panic, in fear, and in pain. It all made sense to me why I was having this limping pain in those areas of my body all my life. Every time someone attempts to massage before, it would be so ticklish at the same time painful that massage therapists would have difficulty massaging with fingers unless they close their hands in a fist.“Who put the implant in me?” I askedI saw two beautiful tall golden figures with golden wings. One was feminine and the other was masculine. They were very familiar; in fact, they looked like the exact image of my avatar icon on my web page:I started feeling angry. I demanded to explain to them why they’d put an implant in me without my permission. They explained that they have been guiding me all my life. They were teaching me what to do, how to do things. In fact, they told me that all of these things... the creation of the very first Ayahuasca ceremony in the country has been orchestrated by them through me. I felt used and tricked. I felt it was a great conspiracy that I was not aware of. I was angry for blindly trusting them all my life.I shouted in anger, “Get it out of me! I did not grant you permission! Why would you orchestrate this if it meant that I find it out?”They answered, “We risked that you find it out so that you could meet us and explain to you everything”“Get it out! I don't want to talk to beings that have violated my freewill.” “You are not in a good state to make that decision.” I began crying. I knew these entities were powerful beyond measure and I don't have the power to overcome them. I felt powerless, hopeless, and helpless.“You don't suppose I could trust you after learning that you have implanted something in me without my knowledge, do you? You do not have credibility in my eyes because of what you have done. I will only listen to you if you take it out of me.”They stayed silent. I was crying. All memories of being violated and molested were not real anymore to me. It was a cover up of an even bigger cover-up: the implantation of something in my head. I woke up with tears on my face. I saw Chiqui and called her for help. I told her that there was an implant in my brain and was begging her to help me take it out. I was pointing my finger to where it was placed. She said to go back to my vision and find out more about it.Hopeless and helpless, I gathered the strength to go back and face these beings.“What is the purpose of this implant in my head?” “To bypass creation,” was the answer.It did not mean anything to me. So I tried using electric violet light from my hands in the attempt to dissolve it. I also used red and gold too but nothing seemed to work. I was praying to God, asking and pleading to help me. I thought, “Why did You allow this to happen to me?” I was invoking God and trying to send a beam of light from my crown to the heavens.“It is no use to take it off, Mae, if you get it out, you are going to die.”Again I roused up and called for Chiqui begging her to take it out. It was literally feeling like a hot iron rod in my head and I was in so much pain. She put energy on my head and the voices stopped. I was relieved and thanked her. I stood up and went to the balcony area where some of the participants were smoking and shared to them my experience.The ceremony ended and they urged participants to go to the dining are for the post-Aya ceremony meal. I was not in any mood to consume anything and so I went straight to my room only to discover that my journey hasn’t finished yet. Alas! The implant in my head vibrated again. My whole life flashed before me. When I was born, I was born dead and post-mature. My Mom had to undergo Caesarean section just to take me out. It seemed that I did not want to be born. Six months before that, I was a normal fetus in a normal head-to-birth-canal- position, but months after, I managed to turn myself around my mother's womb, coiling the cord around my neck in the process. Miracles of miracles, I lived. It was at that point the "apparatus" was implanted. They showed me how my Dad used to hunt for birds. He apparently killed a mystical bird and took that as an opportunity to have claim over me. They showed me how I could hear glorious music in the wee hours at night, how I could hear voices and transcribe dictations that don't even make sense to me even I was young .They explained to me, my life, me as a being, and my purpose. I said don't want anything of it because I really just want to die and be with my husband. I still pleaded them to take it out but they won't heed. I now call them "Bird People" because they seemed to be from the sky and had wings.They explained to me how I should have been dead a long time ago and it was the implant that is keeping me alive. The implant cleans all "mutations" and dysfunctions everyday. They said preventing me from contracting a disease was a daily process of upkeeping my whole system. One small dysfunction or distortion will lead to disease. They told me that is the reason why it was easier for me than the average population to heal a wound or to reverse my body from sickness. They showed me countless accidents where I could have died but it was the implant that kept me alive.“If we take it out, you will prematurely die, go penniless, depressed, and with nothing to live for.”I was really angry at this point because all of these seemed dubious to me. I said to them in tears, “I don't care if all of these things happen to me, as long as I lived by my own terms, it is my choice, and it is my will. Take it out now! I want to be free!”Then all went silent. I slept the whole night afterwards.Second DayBefore the ceremony, Eric, the Neoshaman facilitator asked us to set intent. He explained to me prior that I was reaching out to God last night but it was Ayahuasca whom I should be reaching out for in this ceremony. She is the emissary of God. I verbalized my intention and asked Aya that I experience unconditional love. Eric ran a meditation with the participants before the ceremony. At that time I was already hearing a humming sound at a distant. I asked everyone if they could hear what I was hearing. I was thinking of asking a staff member to turn off the water tank because it may be disturbing other people’s Aya journey but since no one else could hear it, I gave the issue a rest.When I drank the brew, the humming became a buzzing sound which grew louder and louder by the minute. Sometimes it was in front of me, sometimes it was on the right side of my ear, and sometimes in the other. Sometimes it was far, and sometimes it was very near. I realized it by then that it was not caused by the water tank motor at all! Something was fluttering around me. I opened my eyes when I heard that it was in front of me. I saw a lot of small wheels turning.Those wheels that also seemed like eyes belonged to one very large being. It also seemed to have many wings. I remembered in my Spirit Quest training that this is how Seraphim may have looked like. I noticed that there was a feminine presence behind it. I closed my eyes and saw myself in a blank white space. In the sky was a long colored figure flying. I thought it was a Chinese dragon until it landed in front of me. It was Pegasus with rainbow- colored mane and an extremely long rainbow-colored tail. I rode its back and it took me through the clouds. It was an exhilarating experience like the scene in the Never-Ending Story movie. We arrived in a strange-looking forest. I saw three flower-like beings floating in the sky urging me to follow them. I couldn't see the colors because the forest was dark. I looked up beyond the forage of the trees and saw the sky was bright. There were a lot of flying things and beings in the sky.Then a light flashed on my left. I saw a peacock with wings gestured as to perch on landing in front of me. Riding on that peacock was a grand beautiful feminine figure. I couldn't see the face but I could see immense light on her forehead. The forehead has something like a beautiful headdress or tiara made of materials never seemed possible to be created together. It was likened to a three-pronged cobweb made out of the quill of a feather that sometimes looked like twigs, or bones, or coral...laden with dewdrops that glistened like crystals. The hues were blue and green close to turquoise and it was emitting pure white light. Then the vision disappeared. She then appeared as a naked lady just like the painting of Sandro Boticelli’s “Birth of Venus” except it was in blue and green. Then the vision dissolved. The background would also dissolve with her. It was like forming then unforming, creating then uncreating. She appeared on the right, then on the left then sometimes she flew over my body. The whisp of her body against mine aroused me. I was surprised to perceive it as a very sensual, erotic, and pleasurable experience. Then all became still and there was only a white space. She appeared with head bowed down with her face covered in her. When she looked at me, I was taken aback. Her face was blank.I said, “Why don't you show your face?” She answered playfully, “Why don't you put a face on me?”I tried to put eyes, nose and mouth on her, it was like a slot machine game where you mix and match the parts to create a whole but nothing seemed to fit. Frustrated, I said, “Why don't I just put MY face on you?” She answered, “What face of you do you want me to put on?” Again I was surprised but I understood what she meant. I saw a selection of the different versions of me. It was like a carousel of busts spinning slowly around me to see. Some of them were familiar but others, I never had seen before nor do I recognize in my entire life or lifetimes. It seemed to be the different versions of me from my past, present, and future lives. Then the carousel stopped and it lit up to one particular face. It was as if she it chose it for me. My jaw dropped. I exclaimed, “I look like this? It's so beautiful!” I never imagined myself to look like that. She seem to be me but not really looked like me at all. Her eyes were similar to mine. Her lips were so luscious and inviting. Her long brown-blonde hair was as if the sun kissed it.Then she put fire on my face. My face was burning but it didn't hurt. By this time, I was half- conscious of the people around me at the same time, aware of the fire burning my face. It was burning following the rhythm and melody of the music playing on the background. I felt excitement. It was like a gift being unwrapped slowly on a Christmas day. It took three songs to finally burn that layer off my face.Then she started dancing with the trees. I saw myself in a white long flowing robe and with the face she selected on me. I saw myself in the middle of the trees harnessed by their vines. I was dancing and flying in the air and singing at the same time. I felt so exhilarated and so happy!There were birds, butterflies and flowers around me that seemed to be like confetti. I was dancing to my heart's joy!The trees were dancing too. Moments later, the trees took form of a naked couple embracing each other. Then the trees turned into three naked couples dancing erotically in front of me. They were joined in the lips, arms and thighs. It was highly sensual and pleasurable to look at. I enjoyed it very much. It reminded me of the union of the masculine and the feminine. I was revelling at the beauty of their union, aroused by the sensuality of the dance. Suddenly, the music changed and the couples exchanged partners. Anxiety welled up in my heart. I asked, “Why do they have to change partners? Aren't they satisfied to have united with each other?” I could not see Aya at that time, but I still felt her presence. In a very compassionate voice she answered, “It is not about who but how.” I understood. I felt ashamed for asking but the new- found wisdom liberated me as well. I understood it without being explained any further. I cried in wonder and thanked her for this teaching. Then something stirred in my heart. I was half-awake and even my body felt it and my chest responded, I had to physically stretch my chest out. It was something of immense power. It was a light that was in my heart...so palpable, so tangible, and so strong. It was as if a nuclear reactor was activated. My body was shaking from so much energy but I felt so much love, so much wonder, and so much joy. I felt that the whole universe was inside my heart.After such a grand moment, I just wanted to share. I sat up and Eric and participant S was nearby. I exclaimed to them in sheer joy, “I met Aya! I met Aya! I met Aya!” Eric motioned me to go back to my visions to talk to her some more. I wanted to share more but I blindly obeyed. Reluctantly, I laid down again and started calling her in my mind but I couldn't find her anywhere anymore. It was now dark and I couldn't find my way back to the forest. I heard her voice in my head, “Now that your heart is activated. Use that power in your heart to heal yourself.” I understood intuitively that I have to heal my sacral chakra. So I imagined light from my heart being transferred to that region. Then a familiar feminine sinister entity popped out. I met this entity a long time ago when I was trying out Carl Sagan's technique describe in his book “Entities” way back in 2006. She looked like a mummy corpse— with charcoal black skin slightly covering the dried muscles and bones on her face. She had a remnant of a crown on her head. She had a banshee voice. I had the thought of her being a vain entity. She might have been beautiful before. The word, “Bathsheeba” popped in my head. I had the knowing that she becomes beautiful and youthful again when I engage in sex. At that time that I met her lodged in my sacral region, she told me that her purpose was for me to have sex without love and have love without sex. Prior to this moment, there was nothing I wanted more to than to get rid of that entity. I tried a lot of things to get her out of my system using different healing techniques and modalities and more but nothing seemed to work. I figured out before that this may be an entity which I attracted and allowed to come in after the experience of being molested as a child.When I got married, I thought I was able to lock her in so it would not interfere with my relationship. But now I was confronted with her again. This time, however, I was surprised at uttering these words, “Thank you, your purpose have been served, go in peace and with my love.” Then she bowed down at me and flew away! Whoa! I flabbergasted, “That was so simple! How come I haven’t I thought of doing this in the past?”I continued transferring light from my heart to the sacral region. I saw different dark sacs hanging in my uterus. I got frightened at the sight of these sacs bearing the offspring of dark entities. Imagine my horror! I suddenly had the knowing that dark entities have been usingmy uterus to breed. It explained a lot of times why I seemed to feel pregnant in the past and not having my period for sometimes 3 to 6 months (or sometimes more) then suddenly having one as if I was delivering a child! I suddenly had the urge to stop giving light. Instead, in my mind, I plucked each sac out and sent it to the light. It worked! The wisdom given to me from this experience is not to have sex without love. Everytime I do that-- have sex with strangers-- of which I have done a lot in the past, the dark entities use that opportunity to come in and breed in me. I also had recurring tumours in my cervix of which I battled since I was 18 years old. It would form and when I would be aware of it, it would get healed on its own. Then it would repeat again on another time. All along, I blamed it to my molestation. I now learned that it was more of my own doing.I was very tired and drained after doing that. I went into a vision of going into my womb and was dumbfounded of the revelation-- that my womb is carrying a new universe inside it. She showed me a baby inside and showed me that the new universe is being transferred to the baby inside my womb, specifically, in his cells and DNA. This baby literally carries a whole new universe in his own being together with all the knowledge and wisdom it contains. I was stupefied in disbelief. A month ago before the aya ceremony, while I was meditating with Kelly Howell's binaural music, a big woman with a brown veil appeared to me. She showed me the world she belonged. She revealed to me that I am Lyran like her. It was our race, and as a Lyran, we “carry the universe in our womb.” It did not really made any sense to me at that time so I pushed it aside. I checked Google and found out that the Lyrans are Feline/Lion extraterrestrial race whose purpose is to breed. Although it was too coincidental that I was born with the Zodiac Leo and my name literally bears the word “lioness” (Leonice), and cats have always been present in my life, it was too fantastical a concept for my mind to accept. But now, Aya is telling me almost the same thing!“Be careful of whom you share it with because not all are worthy. They want what is yours and use this energy for their own agendas. It is not yours, you are just a keeper of it.”She said that there are a lot of beings and people who would like to get that from me and asked me not to share it with anyone whom I feel cannot be trusted. I was awed at this revelation but at the same time fearful and paranoid of whom to trust.I opened my eyes and saw one participant, J at the other end of the room, he was sitting on the floor and looked at me as if he knew what was inside me. I saw an ugly being superimposed on him. I started becoming fearful, covered myself in a blanket and cried silently. I did not want people to see me in that weak state. Eric approached me and asked if I was okay. I told him that there is a monster inside J. He replied that there is nothing evil in him. He chanted Om and gave me energy through my back which comforted me. But when I looked again at J, he looked back and raised his eyebrows at me as if to mock me. He even motioned his hand to reach out to me then clenched his fist as if he wanted something from me. I burrowed myself inside the blankets again, crying until I couldn't breathe anymore. I reached out to the crucifix amulet my friend, Chi, gave me. He said a powerful mystic in Mount Banahaw named Inang, gave it to him when he was very young. I put the necklace around my neck and held on the cross calling for Inang for protection. Comforting warmth surrounded me. Then I remembered that it might interfere with my Aya journey and so I thanked Inang and requested her to allow Aya to heal me.Minutes later, I had a sudden thought asking myself why I have been so afraid. He looked like the person who molested me before but it was a long time ago. The real person is now actually dead. I took the necklace off. I looked at J again and this time, another male participant, F , also showed a superimposed monster on him. They now looked like child bullies in my eyes. They seemed to avoid my stare. “Wait a minute, I am stronger than them,“ I thought. I sat up and this time, watching them through the periphery of my eyes. I said to myself that one wrong move from them and I would vanquish them with a flick of my finger. I can uncreate them. I suddenly felt powerful and I liked the feeling. They seemed to act uneasy and F invited J to go for a cigarette break.“See! See! They are threatened by my energy! They couldn't withstand my presence. They know what I could do to them!” My piercing gaze followed them as they excused themselves to the front porch. While they were gone, I was thinking of the best way to pulverize them. I was even thinking of making it my mission to uncreate all of their kind in this world. I was full of ego in the realization of my power. My hands were in a position of zapping an imaginary version of them in between my palms. But then I felt Aya's presence again and my heart skipped a beat. I had a sudden realization how futile that action would be. So instead of dissolving them into oblivion, I declared, “I bless you both with love and I forgive you because you of your way of being at this level of awareness.” I was filled with so much compassion. I gained the understanding that no matter how powerful one can be, the only way is to love especially the unloved.I groggily went to the bathroom to pee. As I went back and lay on my mattress, it was getting cold and so I thought I would just go to sleep. Then I rose up going through the ceiling and up towards the sky. As I was floating upwards, I saw the movements of darkness and light. I saw how everything is composed of both light and dark and that each is part of the other. The whole point was balance. The interplay of the dark and light are all serving God's creation. I saw myself at the top of the whole creation. Aya told me I am the Creator. I created everything including her. The whole purpose is to enjoy this creation. It is my creation.She then gave me 7 seeds. She said to practice creating so I could remember who I am. I saw myself sitting in a lotus position. I was very big... bigger than the whole universe. There were planets from the different galaxies zooming beside me, awaiting the seeds to be planted. I began declaring my creation of one by one in each seed and implanted in on these planets. I couldn't remember all those I declared but it kind of sounded like this:This creation is for love in the most unexpected bizarre places and circumstance... This is to experience love at the times where there is no hope...This is for love that transcends lifetimes...And so on and so forth.I was so pleased with my creations thinking that all were good. Then I saw the planet earth. In my mind, earth was the luckiest planet of all because it bore the seed of the one that will create a new universe. I felt humbled by that notion of having a role in my own creation, but at the same time, my human side was panicking because of such great responsibility.The vision flew from being in the cosmos to a specific place on earth-- the Philippines. I was shown that I will have a child and the child was made of golden in energy. That was the meaning of bypassing creation. By normal means and circumstances, this child will not come to be. I saw mass destruction and how the world will be in total darkness. But I also saw a small patch of green earth in another part of the world where the children were playing and celebrating. I saw people gathering and listening to this child. They were following him wherever he goes. I saw peace throughout the land. I heard grandiose music to emphasize how special those times were. I had physical goose bumps as I couldn't believe it. “Is this the future?” The visions and music faded with the image of people across the world uniting for a new earth. She said that it is happening now and we needed to prepare for it. I made a commitment to Aya that I will connect her to more people for as long as I live. She showed me that she is not the only one to be connected to although she was pleased. Somehow the other planets and galaxies were rejoicing as well with what was happening to earth. As the vision and music faded, I stood up to go to the kitchen because the ceremony has ended. Apparently, my journey has not finished. As I interacted with people, I saw the light and dark in them. I saw a mechanical apparatus in their heads as well. This apparatus, I understood was defined as "socio- cultural programming." I was looking at people with amazement because I exactly knew whether that person was responding out of the influence of the light, the dark, or from the apparatus. When somebody responds out of the apparatus on their heads, they would appear robotic in my eyes just like a broken video recording that plays over and over again. I saw all of that in every person with the remembering that I created them. I was amazed by the beauty of each creation and loved them for that.S, a female participant was laughing at me because of how I stared at her. I kept telling her I love her and how a beautiful creation she was. I wanted to tell her that I created her but I‘d rather keep it as a secret so as not to be taken with ego. She said I was acting strange and asked if she has to get used to me being like that. I couldn't help it! It was a glorious feeling to see the truth in people and yet appreciate the beauty of it!The whole retreat ended with a bonfire beside the lake. However, it rained. In spite of that, because of the great feeling from the Aya journey, we danced around the fire under the rain! All the elements at that time seemed to celebrate with us. It was fitting closing to a magical journey.

I am forever grateful for Eric, our guide. For he's guidance and healing. Without him all of this would not be possible